A Better Me!

I'm somebody who gets sad and feels like crying when i'm not done with my syllabus for my exams.

I'm somebody who shares with my friends and boyfriend about how people in my life irritate me.

I'm somebody who doesn't hang out or socialize much.

I'm somebody who whines a little. Sometimes, a lot.

I'm somebody who gets angry and then keeps that anger within me. Thus, making myself feel all negative and crappy.

So this winter, it is time for a NEW me, a BETTER me.
 

 

I won't change my values because they are the goodness in me but what i need to change is the way i carry my life. It's become boring. Static. Nothing's happening. No hobbies.

So here's my list for this winter. A list for an interesting winter life.

1. Find a hobby.
2. Smile. Be a good company.
3. Be confident. Shoulders-back-chin-up-kinda confident.
4. Expand that tiny pocket in my jeans. Earn a little more this winter.
5. Be more polite to people. Don't forget to say those amazing words- 'Thank You' and 'Please'.
6. Study well.
7. Read a lot of books.
8. Do not be a whiny girl.
9. Avoid arguments. In case i can't, then i'll try to argue sensibly.
10. Act more like an adult. Because i guess that's what i'm.
     

What My Boyfriend Thinks...

KJ and i have never been in a long term relationship before. My last relationship (and the only one before KJ) was for four months and i spent two of those months thinking that something was going wrong. And i was right about it.

 

KJ, on the other hand, was almost engaged two years ago. Almost engaged in the sense that they did not have a formal engagement ceremony but he was in love with someone that he had asked her to marry him and she said yes. Though they had known each other only for three months, KJ had thought that that was it. That she was the girl. Though somehow, they had to go separate ways because the girl decided to call off the relationship and move back to the US. KJ said she had a good enough reason but of course he was heartbroken.

 

Now, the thing is KJ and i, we both had never been in a long term relationship.

 

Right now, KJ and i have been with each other for a little more than 7 months. And for us, that is the longest.

 

So we don't know what are the side-effects of a long-term relationship. Do people get bored of each other? Do people not want to talk to each other sometimes? What do we people do when the initial sparks are blown out?

 

I got pretty emotional. And thought may be KJ wants a break. So we talked about it and KJ said that taking a break is completely stupid. It doesn't make any sense. He said though things are changing, it does not mean we are falling out of love.

 

He said even thought we are facing the side effects of a long-term relationship, he wants to maintain the status quo. And the status quo, he said, is that 'I love you'.

 

:) What would i ever do without my boyfriend?

 

Baby, you are the one thing that detangles my messed up mind.