Finding the One

I thought it could only happen in my imagination. It being finding true love. I thought it also happens in Hollywood rom-coms but it could never happen to me. Also, finding true love meant that that love would have to be a good person, not just anybody. Not a bad boy falling in love with me. But a nice guy. So true love had to be nice as well.

 

I never thought i could find it. And now that i have, it seems so normal. It feels like ‘Was this that i was worried about? Did i think i would never find love?’ Because what i have now was what i always wanted, always dreamed of, and it feels like everything happened so smoothly. It feels like i did not even have to wait for so long to find true love. Though a few years ago, it seemed to me that i would have to wait till eternity. Now, it seems like i’m so lucky that i found somebody so right so soon in life. I’m in my early twenties, and my boyfriend KJ is older than me. So though he had to wait for long, i did not. At least, not as long as he has waited for the right one.

 

When i was waiting for the right one to come along, i never thought that there would be somebody else waiting and dreaming for the kind of love that i had dreamed about.

 

There were so many things on my mind a few years ago. I had been worried about my higher studies, about whether i’ll find a job or not, whether i’ll ever find love. But things changed suddenly. I got into this university for my masters and i found love.

 

Like KJ, even i though that university is one of those places where one finds love because there are so many people around you. So you would think that there would be at least one among those people who would be for you. But after initial heartbreak, KJ had thought if he had left this university without finding love, he would accept that there is no one made for him. And after falling for a guy who did not like me back, i had thought that there is probably no guy who is right for me. I had thought that probably it would take me years to find the perfect man but then i also thought that there probably doesn’t exist a guy like that. How could a dream guy be real? Somebody like that, if real, would not already exist but need to be born now. That’s how crazily i had thought.

 

What i did not know back then was that somebody like that had already been born, and born way before i had.

 

These days i feel finding him was so easy, like it was something that was meant to happen and i was stupid to have been worried about finding true love. Like finding true love was so easy.

 

I feel so blessed and so lucky. I cannot thank my guardian angel enough to have let me find true love, not just somebody i would love but somebody who would love me back the same way.

 

KJ baby, i know how much i mean to you. I know what place i hold in your life. Sometimes i forget how important you are to me. I don’t forget that i love you but i forget that you are that precious thing i had been waiting for. I forget that once upon a time you were impossibility. Yet you happened. You happened to me baby. You call me a miracle because you say people are not lucky to find love the second time but you were lucky that you did. Baby, you are the biggest miracle that has ever happened in my life.

 

I thought these things only happened in movies so that we could keep hoping in real life. But now i know that these things happen in real life too. Something that your heart wishes for can actually happen some day when you are least expecting it. When you think you’re not the kind of person they are looking for, that’s when they start getting attracted to you. When you think with the end of the semester, things would change, that’s when there starts something new.

 

When you think you would never find love and will remain unmarried forever, that’s when somebody slips into your life. And when you look back, you thank god with all your heart that you did not do a single thing differently. Because if you had, this person would not have come into your life. You thank god for all your success and all your failures; for all that time when you went off the track; for all that time when you thought life was being unfair to you by putting you in a situation you did not want to; for all those times you choose to do something unconventional, choose to take a risk. You thank god that you failed at all the things you failed, and succeeded in all the things that you did. You thank god that you chose to study in the university you studied in. You thank god that you chose to quit your job even after crossing 30 and go back to college to get a masters degree. You thank god that you chose to take the risk of ‘what people would think of you’, how others would treat you once they get to know you are older than them.

 

You thank god that you were different enough to find love.